Oh, and have I mentioned in the past ten minutes my collection of advanced degrees? How many countries I've visited? My IQ? The number of books I read each week?
If you know me in real life, I probably have.
You can probably tell that I struggle, really struggle, with pride. Satan's sin of choice. That's me: SO important. SO smart. SO independent.
And, really, to be honest: so lost.
I read the Bible, but it doesn't change who I am. It doesn't make me a better person (how could it when I already think so highly of myself?).
I go to church and Bible study, but it's more for education (or entertainment) than for worship.
And I feel so far from God.
Tonight, two people came to my mind. Two people I think are "weak" and emotionally fragile. Not me. Nope. No way - I have it all figured out.
But, wait....maybe being weak isn't the worst thing that could happen to me...
It's time to be honest: I have hit a "wall" in my faith - well, I likely have been walking around this wall for years - and I am ready to find my way THROUGH it.
Prayers would be welcome.
That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:10
