Full of Faith and Scared to Death

In reading the letters I have recently published and the discussions that followed, I have come to question my long-held belief that the church was “right” up until Walter died. I don’t know. I wasn’t alive in those days. But, I’ve decided to give Ernest Nichols a closer look – having been led to believe all my life that Ernest was a bad, bad man. So, on Wednesday, I will publish a transcript of one of Ernest’s sermons. For today, please take in the last letter from the Tommy series (there may be more letters, and if I come across any more, I will publish them later).

e·pis·tle   [ih-pis-uhl]

noun

1. a letter, especially a formal or didactic one; written communication.

2. ( usually initial capital letter ) one of the apostolic letters in the new testament.

3.( often initial capital letter ) an extract, usually from one of the Epistles of the New Testament, forming part of the Eucharistic service in certain churches.

(www.dictionary.com)

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Look at the people who backed the elders and Ernest Nichols the last 30 years. D., K.H., K.W., plus many more. These three backed Riley Keith over Freeman Smith to Let D.N. walk his daughter up the church isle. They wanted me to choose sides. I told them no sides, do what is right. If not, it’s wrong.

Walter White rejected D.N.. He saw him as a person with no spirit of God in him. Freeman was saying it is wrong to allow this wedding.  Riley was saying it is okay. These three men backed Riley. Dorothy (Walter’s widow) said to some of us that she feared for D. for what he was backing – Riley Keith and not Walter.

They all wanted to reject Freeman Smith. K.H.’s life was cut short. K.W. left after a Jezebel Whore (?), because of backing the wrong thing. There was a meeting held at D.’s home on this matter. Also look about you people in this church who went along with the elders over what Walter White taught and preached. Look how it was established. The gunk didn’t [told?] of a preacher, just go along and be happy and don’t go to Hell.

Like Walter said and I believe it, “They pushed me to the ocean and I am not going any farther. They can either believe what I preached or go along with the Gunk of Ernest Nichols and the elders and go to Hell with it. If people only knew and read their Bibles or remember what Walter White believed and preached. This church is privately being taught by disciples who are D., N.B., and whoever goes along with their lies and deceit and changing the Word of God. They teach another doctrine than what they were baptized under and preached to.”

Like Walter said of D., “There he stands all full of faith and scared to death” (in other words, afraid to do the right thing). Like people will whisper and say things now like was told to me and others L.D. died and was heard to say D’s family were wrong in that they went along with the elders and made peace not to withstand them anymore and be a peacemaker.

Those who went along with the elders sold out to their doctrine and gunk over Walter who preached against that kind of religion. Rejected brethren for what he stood for all these years. Proof is for 30 years they don’t even talk of Walter White, who said when he was baptizing in this church in 1968, when your children were 6 years old they will be alright when the end of time comes in 1972. But now we have gone 30 years without asking for a preacher.

Walter said the fullness of the gentiles is in and without a preacher it surely is. The gentiles will be cut off and no hope for baptism unless God send a preacher. So your children with your lies and gunk are now 40 years old. They will be judged without the church. They are gentiles. Read the word of God. Don’t take my word for it. Teach those young people Walter lied to this church. No he never lied. He was a man of God. He was honest and truthful. All men are liars, but not God and his apostles.

Everyone after 30 years got to read an epistle reminding this church of what happened  and what Walter preached. Because one man remembered and wrote it down, Tom Nichols.  This letter was like a missile – it shot down all of us who were teachings something else and followed after the elders and their gunk and not following what Walter White preached and taught the truth to this church.

Fresh Air

Be Good Ole Boys

Here is another letter, presumably written by Tom Nichols, though not signed. I will publish the final letter on Sunday, and then move on to other topics.

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They all turned back to the inequities of their forefathers, who refused to hear my words and they went after other doctrines and gods to serve them. The house of Judah has broken my covenant which I made with their forefathers. Therefore, thus saith the Lord, behold I will bring evil upon them, which they shall not be able to escape and though shall cry unto me, I will not hearken unto them, so saith God.

Like the Followers of Christ church in Oregon City. They deny the word of God for a need of a preacher to save those that believe and their children who do not know the way except by self-righteous men and women who have followed after another doctrine and spirit which was not preached by Walter White, the only true apostle that taught the word in its fullness. If people think they can change the word of God, this will not happen. They are living and teaching the wrong doctrine.

Just like Timothy said, taught to him by an apostle of Jesus Christ, I thank god whom I serve from my forefathers with pure conscience that without ceasing I have remberence of thee in my prayers day and night. This I know: down through the years, God will come and wipe all you people’s self-righteous looks and smiles off your faces unless a change is made.

How can anyone not teaching and believe the teachings of Walter White, the apostle of Jesus Christ, survive? This church needs a preacher now. Even back in the 1940’s, people should pray and seek God to send a preacher for our children. Just like people follow off after men’s teachings not God’s word. No one can change the Bible or add to the Bible.

Just like your lying elders. They never taught that we need a preacher. Just be good ole boys and every one will make it to heaven. Like your last elder, the people bent over backwards to please a man who was a liar and taught all people by lies not the truth. If this man was for you people he would have taught the truth preached by Walter White and the need of a preacher for you and himself.

People will be judged for their wrongs especially the ones they never correct. Just like Tom and Phyllys’ boy, Mitch Nichols baptized and 24 years old when he passed away. He gave up all the worldly things and served God from youth up. Like was said which was told to me by Orville White, Walter told Orville White a higher reward that most will get because he served God from his young life and also was handicapped. All of us in this church treated a young man, 24 years old, who was baptized like he was nothing. It would have been better if a millstone was hanged on our necks than to offend one of these little ones, who had the spirit of God in him by being baptized.

The leaders or whatever you people call them did not so much as give this young man a wreath for his grave when he passed away. This was done by your lying elder Glenford Lee who taught and told you lies off the pulpit and on the pulpit and was heard saying how he handled people’s questions was he argued with everyone right or wrong and he Glenford Lee said that way nobody gets upset (because I told them all the same answer so [unreadable] off now and this letter take all the rest will bear witness against you people.

Amen

They Put This Church To Sleep

Here is another letter from 1998 or 1999. It is not signed, but is in the same handwriting and writing style as the one letter Tom Nichols did sign. Names have been shortened to initials to protect the privacy of anyone mentioned, though anyone in the church will be able to discern who it is - these same insiders have had access to the letters, so it should not be new information. In the case of the man who is mentioned / condemned throughout the letter, I only used his first initial.

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Circa 1998/1999

Brethren,

Due to ever-growing fake doctrine taking over in this church more and more, I will speak out. It start with D., in the back room of this church condemning and making fun of W.S. and his wife for letting their daughter leave their home (afterwards they kicked K.H. out of their home) who was going to try and get back with her husband B.H.. In simple words, D. did not believe according to Walter White who marriages together not split them.

But of D., out of his heart, he spoke his true feelings and was condemning B.H. and his wife getting together and trying to save their souls and marriage. But D. changed like a double minded man he is. He made people believe after he showed his hate and unbelief on their marriage. Someone told D. he was wrong. Why? Because after four to five days, he told people he was 100% behind this marriage being put back together.

Who was this person or people that told D. he was wrong? Why and if they can change D.’s mind on this marriage why can’t they change his mind on all the other marriages 20 or 30 who the elders destroyed these marriages and D. was backing the elders all the way and the last thirty years. He should tell G.W. and S.H. like he told W.S. and their children they were wrong and K.W.’s marriage to B.W. should have been saved. But no, D. stuck his nose in the marriage and the family and taught hate and teachings against that marriage.

What is the difference between these two families? Is it blood or water? Walter White would have put these marriages together. No, not D., he is a double minded man in all of his teachings and destroyed that marriage. Like the elders taught and tore apart.

I talked to a man in this church and I did not believe him when he said there were thirty or more marriages that the elders judged and condemned those marriages to Hell. Like I can read what Walter White preached and saved marriages by staying together and repenting and helping each other per chance God would let them make themselves a vessel to honor.

People will follow D. just like they followed the elders’ gunk and tore down Walter White’s teaching. Walter White put marriages together – and the count [of destroyed marriages] none against him. The elders count of destroying all those filthy men and women’s marriages, 30 and still counting.

Ask anyone in this church what good thing or honest thing that helped this church or people. Which elder and how many teachings you can name. None. They put this church to sleep. Believe it or not, we will all find out at the end of time. Another hate and try to get control of people.

Brethren are having dreams and visions of other brethren condemning them for doing the right thing and asking and talking for a preacher for their children. And they warn these unruly brethren not to teach their children or tell them that they need a preacher. Glory be to self-righteousness. It is like the scripture says, they will love the one with fine clothing and words of praise, the easy way is not to have religion because it is so much easier to sing songs and no scripture be read which would only condemn 99% of the church.

So they wait on God and don’t do anything like D.’s way. Because it is easy. No cross to bear, just sit back and be admired. Who did call D. and all these men who follow? D., who has backed the elders not Walter White. For the past 35 years, what has been talked and taught? Not wanting a preacher, no! Just be contented and sleep on!

What these men in this church are teaching, no preacher and be happy. They are falling and fell away and believed those lying elders when Walter passed away, and they are also perverting the word of God.

So this is some of the lies and gunk which has happened and being taught.

Unsigned

We Do Need a Preacher

Here is another letter from those sent out in 1998. The letter was unsigned, though the author claimed to be a 24-year-old man. I have chosen to use initials rather than names of the men who were mentioned in the letter, other than Walter White, Glenford Lee, and Tom Nichols. If you are, or were, part of the church the names will be fairly easy to figure out.

1998

I was born in 1974, five years after Walter White, the apostle, passed away. I never heard or was taught by my parents who he was or what baptism was for, and why only the old ones needed baptism, and not us children. Or from all the friends my dad and mom had. He was not talked about or what he stood for. Except by one man!

Finally I grew up and realized. Tom Nichols was a man who lived it and talked it for the last 30 years and everyone passed it off like it was nothing. I finally realized this when I read his letter. He never could have made up 36 pages of what Walter preached and stood for, what Tom Nichols wrote down.

I never heard or saw any man in this church question him on these things he told that had happened in this church. From 30 years ago up till now. I have realized that all of the ones who are baptized are self-righteous and self-centered and let me and all the ones who are not baptized be cheated out of a preacher, so we could be baptized and gain eternal life too.

Let me tell you this: I believe that my parents and their friends and all the ones who are baptized will have to pay a price for allowing this kind of doctrine to take over in the church. Before I told you I was born five years after Walter died. I am now 24 years old. Let me tell you all I was told of those five elders and their doctrine loud and strong by my parents and friends and all the ones who are baptized. But not what Walter believed and preached to all of them in this church.

Then in 1986, the last elder died, Glenford Lee. Believe you me, the still believe in his doctrine. Strong and he has been dead for 12 years. So for the last 24 years it has been the elders and now the elected and blessed five brethren. They were elected when I was only 12 years old. I grew up believing they were the elders or blessed by the last elder, Glenford Lee. Now at the last meeting of the men, I was told something different. After 12 years of believing that Glenford blessed and picked S.Z., R.R., and L.K. for the job. R.R., S.Z., and D.M. said that it was different.

It was said that D.M. picked one, S.B. picked one, Glenford Lee picked one. I believe that we all believed this and it was a lie because at first 12 years ago, we were told only Gelnford picked all three. What kind of religion is this lie?

All along while I was 12 years old up until I grew up and got married I, in my heart and mind, saw these five men take care of everything – set bones, anoint, lay hands, and go out to sick people’s houses all hours. Marry kids like me and others. What else would you old men and old women who are baptized want us unbaptized people to believe?

You did not tell us the truth all these past 30 years and up till now still lying to all of us. Now the last meeting of the men, July 1998. Now get this: some of us young men told Tom Nichols not to ask any questions. Because us young men were going to ask questions. We got scared and did not ask our question but believe you me, J.S. (an older baptized man) stood up and asked what about a preacher and talking of one. People whispered and talked and said out loud bold that J.S. what out of order and sit down.

B.C. said, “Sit down.” M.W., who is not baptized, said, “Sit down and shut up,” like an impudent ass. J.S. told M.W. to shut up which most of us young men were happy about.

To make a point on these five elected brethren, big exalted K.K. stood up and said, “Why don’t you teach and tell these young men who these men are? Where and what they do in the church. So the young men would be able to understand.” Remember, I grew up from 12 years old till now at 24 years old and I was utterly confused when K.K. got through with his speech.

Just like K.K.’s boys do everything daddy says and just like D.W. and his boys, they do everything daddy says. And just like K.K. in his speech would look at D.W. and made sure that what he was saying was okay by D.W.

Why couldn’t they get up and teach and talk to us young men how to seek God and get a preacher instead of how to believe and understand these five elected men? I believe the old men and the old women in this church think God won’t do anything to their 24 year old and down to 1-year-old grandchildren because I hear out of their mouths, Grandpa and Grandma won’t let God or anyone like Tom Nichols wrote about hurt or harm any of you.

So old men and old women sit in church and sing 10 songs, 50 songs a month and say how good we are. I did hear Tom Nichols say after D.W. said wait on God and continue in sin so grace may abound. To what J.S. said, we do need a preacher.

Unknown

Still Coasting

Below, please find another letter from the series that Tom Nichols started in 1998. This letter came addressed by the same hand that addressed as the other letters and in the same handwriting and style as the first one, which Tom Nichols signed. This letter and all that followed were left unsigned.

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November 1, 1998

In 1969 Walter White passed Away. The elders of this church said you can coast for two or three years until 1972 which will be the end of time. Those self-righteous lying elders said. Here it is 30 years later. Those elders, so you young people will know, never taught anything that Walter White preached in this church about wanting and needing a preacher.

Still coasting. What is the matter with people in this church? Their children and grandkids are not baptized. The men and women in this church lie to those who are not baptized. Their kids, they tell you that are not baptized thirty years ago, you do not need to be baptized.

So when the men and women in this church will sit and talk about nothing and your 40 year old children are all right without baptism. So when your children reach 60 years old Christ could come and say, “Why did you and your forefathers go to sleep? You have neglected the greatest gift in the world, baptism so you could gain eternal life.”

Ask your parents if they are baptized and if they are ask them why you cannot be baptized. And if they tell you anything other than you should be baptized, they are lying to you. God hates liars. Where it started was back when the elders said they were running the church. If you don’t get in behind lying elders you will be sorry, so the men in the church got behind those elders and they never taught that you need a preacher or baptism.

So the men agreed with everything the lying elders said and here it is 30 years later. When Christ comes he will say, “Why did you let the men take your crown?” And the men in this church will say , “We did not know we were wrong.” And, Christ will say, “Depart from me you workers of lies and iniquity. I never knew you.”

What you young men do not know is this: the men in this church are teaching you the same lying gunk that those elders taught them. God destroys people when they do not follow His laws and commandments. For example, look at the Jewish people. To this day, He is letting their children be deceived.

God will not feel sorry for your parents or you because you can read through the Bible that Lot’s line, He (God) destroyed all their children for what reason all because they would not listen or pay heed to God and his law.

You young people can go over their heads and anyone who tries to teach you otherwise. So all you need to know is seek God and let Him know you need a preacher so you can be washed of your sins. Otherwise you will remain unclean until Christ comes to claim his own and judge all of us and the world.

Can you not understand for 30 years without a preacher, where did we all get our salt and who taught to obey God and testify our belief in this church so that we would not be judged with the world? But, be judged in the church with God’s people.

So sleep on. This letter comes from one who knows. But your eyes are blind and your hearts are hardened. So we never wake up. We all will suffer the Judgment Day.

Goodbye

I will post another letter on Wednesday

What Did He Die For?

Please Note: After a number of angry threats (on my eternal soul) for committing the unforgivable sin of mentioning the name of someone who had died, I have replaced references to this person with initials in my blog post. Unfortunately, I cannot edit the comments of others.


Too many young people die – not just the children under eighteen who make the news – also young adults. Twenty- and thirty- somethings. Having a baby can be terrifying, knowing that if something goes wrong – say the baby’s head is too big for a vaginal birth – well, hello martyrdom. There was a man, a year older than me, who was well-liked by all. He married his high school sweetheart when they were nineteen and seventeen, and had two children. When he was in his 20’s, he was injured while water skiing. I believe he hit his head. After several months of suffering, he died. The letter below is from one of his good friends, who (like most members of this group) could not sign his name for fear of retribution.

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Circa 1998

Why did Walter White (from what I hear and read in Tom Nichols’ letter) believe you need a preacher and baptism? Also you who believe the Bible and what Walter preached get your mouths open or else the gunk will take over just like what you people who are baptized are doing now. The gunk and what the elders taught you people who turned themselves over to what you see now and hear, like T.C., said you don’t need a preacher. He (T.C.) believed that faith would heal him, raise him up. It did not work. So the men in this church are wrong. He truly did to believe the men’s teaching in this church faith in God, that he would heal him. But it did not. He died.

He was sick over six months. Prayer to God to heal him and everyone anointed and laid hands on him from all ages from six years old to sixty years old. Baptized ones and ones that were not baptized. Now what do his friends and the young people do? Live some more years under this gunk and joke teaching of the elders and men in this church or get back to the truth of the teaching of Walter White and the bible? Or continue this way because when T.C. died there was no happiness of seeing him again, but a sorrow of why did he have to die and suffer and not have his faith heal or raise him up? Because he has two children and a wife.

There has to be a better way of living. This ten songs and bull shit religion that these old men have backed and taught for thirty years. We do need a preacher and baptism and why should we have to wait on God for thirty more years, because for thirty-five years he has not answered any one of these men in the church for waiting on God.

They say do not counsel God. Don’t piss God off. He might get mad. How all you big men tell us young people more of what to do. We will try and believe our faith in God and get sick and let everyone lay hands from ages one year to eighty years old and get what T.C. got by practicing and playing church. With his faith in God and the truth and he died. But now I can see after more will die while they are playing church not baptized or need a preacher. All the old men and women will still argue they are all right.

Not Jesus Christ or what Walter taught. So do we continue in sin so God may abound. Do the old men and women (forefathers) have the right to teach us and tell us young people we do not need baptism or a preacher? Who in the world or anywhere reads this in the Bible? Can anyone in this church down through time say the old preachers and even Jesus Christ say what we are doing is all right and a lie is okay? We are believing a lie. This church is wrong the way it is playing church.

Friend of T.C.

Please check back on Sunday to read another letter ...

Maggie's Story - Part Two

Last week, my sister-in-law, Maggie Smith Shumaker, wrote about her experience with my marriage to a “worldly person.” This week, Maggie writes about the birth of her first child, just four months after my jailbreak.

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November 27th came, and I woke up needing my mom. We drove over to my mom and dad's house, expecting my labor to pick up and birth this baby that was making me feel like a bus had parked itself in my lap. The day dragged on and on, the house filled with my grandmothers, aunts, sisters, his brother's wife, and the labor completely stopped. No pain, no cramps, so instead of going home, we just went to bed that night, in my mom and dad's room. Settling down around 10:35pm, Oh boy! "MOM" I yelled, he went and got her. I needed to deliver this baby! Oh the pain! Oh make it stop!

His mom had just pulled into her driveway, got into bed, and the phone rang...she was being summoned to the birth of her grandbaby. I hoped she wouldn't call Suzanne, I didn't want her around. She just caused problems for me and my own sisters. The midwives were called back, and I got to push for eleven and a half hours. Finally, at 11:35 am, this large, "boy" appeared in my husband's arms.

His head was pointy. I'd never witnessed a birth. I had no idea what was next, what was expected of me, other than the books that I checked out from the library the day I had the positive test in my hand. What To Expect When You’re Expecting did not prepare me for eleven and a half hours of pushing, and nor did it say my eyelashes and fingernails would hurt. But, our family had been born. All 9 lbs. 15 oz, & 22 1/2 inches of him. There is still debate on my husband's part that the scale actually said 10 lbs. It could have said 15 lbs for all I knew...it didn't matter.

For days I fretted as the conversations and whispers from his mom and him talked about Suzanne coming to see the baby. On a Friday night, while the rest of the church was at a wedding, or maybe it was a Thursday night, during church service, we snuck Suzanne in to hold her nephew. I had to convince my parents that the house wouldn't burn down to hell, or that none of them would suffer from her visit...(not literally, but almost) so, they allowed it. The fact that I had to even talk to them about it, sickened me. From then on, my thoughts toward Suzanne were different. I had utter sympathy for her that she would never walk the aisle I did; she'd never be accepted as she was...if she were ever accepted.

We weren't around her much, but there were times we were. Guess what? Our children loved her. She was the best birthday present giver.  She got our kids giant teddy bears. Not being a mother herself, she just thought of the child, not the parent. She thought of the child's face when they opened her gift. She had everything a nephew or niece cold want in an aunt. Too bad we had to be so sneaky about her being their aunt.

I mentioned children. Prior to the birth of our second son, our relationship with Suzanne had developed more frequently, as she'd came back to sit on the hard benches and sing. She wasn't "worldly" anymore. However, there was no way my oldest sister would be at the birth of my second child. She said her husband told her she couldn't go if Suzanne were there. Although her and her husband associated with couples in "church" that were living unbiblical principles. Suzanne was not. She was married. That was apparently her sin.

So, he got on the phone, and called my sister's husband. He denied telling my sister that she couldn't go to the birth is Suzanne was going to be there. Nonetheless, Suzanne was not allowed at my parent's home during the birth of our second child. His brother's wife, however, was late to the birth, as she had been picking up her kids from her sister's house (who was also "worldly" by marrying outside of the church). It was said that she was afraid that someone would ask about her kids and she didn't want to lie about where they were, as they'd been spending the night at her "worldly" sister's house. Oh the double standards going on, oh the charades we play, just to keep the peace.