I am plagued by doubts about my salvation. I cannot be good enough. I do not deserve salvation. I do not deserve grace.
I know that other people can accept that free gift, but I am convinced that I must earn it or at least be worthy.
Maybe I am not chosen by God for salvation.
Or, maybe I was chosen, but I have wandered too far from the straight and narrow.
Is it too late?
I am trying to believe.
I am trying to have faith.
I am trying to repent.
I am trying to change my thoughts, words, actions, and beliefs.
I am trying to accept God's grace and forgiveness.
I really am trying to figure this out. Maybe I'm trying too hard.